Uh oh

Had a panic attack last Friday.

Was taking a nap, then woke up suddenly, with a horrible feeling that I was about to make the worst mistake of my life going away to Japan on the JET program.

Will God allow me to ruin my life this way? No, He will provide for me.

But I am imperfect and doubts shift uneasily, whispering and shuffling at the back of my brain...